"WILL"

There are two definitions for the word; will according to Oxford dictionary: will 1 and will 2. In this essay, I'll be expressing will 2.  The faculty by which a person decides on and initiates action: she has an iron will a battle of wills between children and their parents' [mass noun]: an act of will

 Remember Christ Jesus had already tested my Flesh and Will when I was born.  So now the first time he tests my Will on humankind is my mother. My mother was a loving, kind and gentle woman yet very stern. I am one of six siblings who is instilled with a great foundation, obedience being a strong point. We didn't have a lot but we never needed anything. One of mom's golden rules was "waste not, want not," and "what I fix you will eat."  I was four years old, mom had prepared for dinner pork chops smothered in gravy mashed potatoes and beets. I ate most of the meat, well the potatoes and beets no thank you. She was annoyed that I had eaten most of the meat and touched nothing else. So she asked "why haven't you eaten the rest of your food?",  I remember answering "because it nasty, I don't like it and I don't want to."  How's that for sweet honesty and innocence.  It didn't sit well with her and she said to me " hum well you're gonna eat it and you will sit there until you do if it takes all night." So she shepherded the others off for baths and bed while I remained alone at the end of the table shuffling my food around my plate with my fork. It was now after seven-thirty and she had returned to the kitchen to clean up. But first, she warmed my food and sat at the table looking at me as if her presence would persuade me to change my mind. Glancing at the clock on the wall then staring at that awful food shuffling it around in my plate, feeling annoyed, confused and thinking why is she treating me this way.  Meanwhile Mom's back at the kitchen sink washing dishes and talking on the phone to grandma.  It's a quarter past eight I know it's past bedtime, 'cause bedtime was when the little hand is on the eight and the big hand is on the twelve. I hear her telling granny what I did then I hear her say, "she's a Willful ole child" glancing back at me, she didn't say stubborn or defiant. Finally, the little hand was on the eight and the big hand is on the seven.  I'm getting sleepy my head is bobbing so I push the plate of food aside and rest my head on the table. She must have turned around and noticed me, I hear her tell grandma "I gotta go, this child  fell asleep at the table."  I felt her pick me up and cart me off to bed caressing my head along the way leaving that plate on the table.  I often wonder and concoct the things as a parent she must have been thinking. However well into adulthood with children of my own, I did ask.  All I got was a very subtle chuckle,  the same chuckle I remember hearing as she carried me off to bed that night. I love you Mom always and forever R.I.P

Sunday coming I'll be writing about my Flat Line ordeal.  I'm privileged to share with you how "His Will"  along with "my Willpower"  had a big role in my story of survival. 
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THE BEACON LIGHT ( Hope For The Oppressed )

"Elitist Ignorance" is how Dr. Tyler Perry phrased it and then he said, "let me tell you what I mean by that," and he broke it down. But before we get to that I need to mention remembering an interview Tyler did, don't recall the particular event but it was a star studded gala affair and the significance is; Tyler stated the room was filed with only prominent and elite folk, he felt out of place. He also said he questioned himself "why am I here?"  "I don't belong here.", so much so that he blurted it out. A female celebrity at the table answered you are here because you belong here. Christians know that when you and Christ Jesus have a "mono ei mono" relationship at any given time he may choose you as his vessel sometimes catching you off guard.  I don't believe they understood themselves what was really happening. Christ Jesus had just used them both. Salvation had just been placed among them in that room. Hey Tyler ever look back on that moment and ask yourself that question now? And then answer ( elitist ignorance ). Hear him address this topic in his speech.Yet another ancestral stigma of being so-called second class citizens. I've witnessed it all to often. However Dr. Perry breaks it down and now I understand it. Thank you for shedding light on that issue. In my opinion I think the only way to fix it is to lead by example which is exactly what he's doing. Tyler has stated that he's not running from us as a people he's going to help us. Lead us in my own words. What I love most about him is the manner in which he has opened his heart to be used by  Christ. I tell you every time I speak on him in this manner my eyes well up and my heart stops a second, then I cry tears of joy. There is one in position who holds hope for humanity.   Can you imagine President Obama riding through the hood? Before Tyler it would have been a joke.  Dr. Mr. Perry pointed out that he purchased Fort McPherson located in the lowest income family neighborhood in Atlanta how about that. His goal is to hire people in the area and train them to be successful. Great choice Tyler there are a lot of gifted folk in the area too. This man of strength, courage, conviction and  most of all love confessed when you achieve a certain level of success you are first celebrated.  Then as you get bigger you become a threat to your peers becoming a target. He guarded himself so he thought against outside intrusion  he was "taken aback" when they came from inside. But that's alright cause when JC has you, he got you. Psalms 23:5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: Thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.,  I must say Dr. Perry your light is truly shining and I'm noticing the glowing affect it has on some of your peers. I keep reflecting many are called but few are chosen. Just a reminder to always walk with your sword never lye it down not for a second. I know even though we walk in the light, we are still human. Blessed are the pure at heart Dr. Tyler.

In closing your TU speech was food for the soul. I know it fed my hungry soul and I'll be full for a long time. I just pray that others got it. My family and I we love you, support you and appreciate what you are doing! All things through Christ Jesus! Amen

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EGOS/POWER

     So I guess our superheros are ego tripping now a days?!
As a youth growing up Superman, Batman, Iron Man and Captain America respectively used their own tactics. It wasn't a problem then. My question is why does everything have to be a battle or a power struggle?  Let me guess according to we the people it's all about who possess the most. Well if it's all about power,  a lot have forgotten who holds The Power and The Glory.  My belief is that his chosen are few.  Besides  aren't we struggling enough with our economy and other crisis, why struggle among ourselves?  It seems so senseless.  Are we barbarians seeking thrills and finding comfort in lies, deceit, scandal, killing and controversy?.

     Was thinking how nice it would be to sit down to watch a t.v show that is positively fulfilling again.  A show that we all could gain wisdom and encouragement from.  Whatever happened to shows with themes such as Little House On The Prairie, Lassie,  Seventh Heaven and Touched by an Angel?  Family oriented television dramas that portray endearing friendships, triumphs and loving families achieving and hanging on to faith, hope and charity. Remember them, Faith, Hope and Charity?.  Shows that left everlasting positive impressions on us. And I'm not talking about reality t.v shows for there is nothing real about them.

     It can't be just all about the money?  Morals I know you're out there.  Is there anyone who's willing to change the game.  The public majority are heavily influenced by public media especially our youth,  it's sad to say but true.

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PRINCE We Love You

Renee Zachary originally shared:

 

In lieu of all the (Controversy) and Conspiracy Theories that are popping up surrounding Prince's death, I've done some delving and discovered something quite interesting. This question plagues me. Could Prince have foreseen his death date as early as this recording? For those of you who know a bit about numerology Prince's motorcycle plates in the movie Purple Rain read 96146. Once omitting the number 4 which represents the month of April and is also recorded track number 4 for this song on the album Diamonds & Pearls, and I'll explain the song's significance momentarily. We are then left with the numbers 9616. 6+6+1=13+9=22. 22 being the day after his passing. Now to explain the significance of the number 22 in this song.  Lyrics start "One more card and it's 22 UNLUCKY for him Again." , so we know he's referring to the game 21 Black Jack which is the day he passes 21st and unlucky symbolizing he would he wouldn't see 22?.  So in a nutshell we have 96146. 4/21/16/ according to this song. Let me quote more of the lyrics. "Money didn't matter yesterday and it sure doesn't matter to night that's when you find out that you're better off making sure your Soul's alright."  How powerful is that??? Could these daunting words be  the foresight of his own death and why there is no will???? Anyways it crossed my mind. (MIU) Music Is Universal

WORLD ( A fuc... Mess! )

                            WHAT A FREAK'N MESS


     I see the big picture and this is my sense of it.  I'm
going back to the beginning where it all started Old testament;
New testament. Having stated that I guess it's safe to say conflict
of interest. Old vs. New  Wisdom vs Naive. Father God, I see it as
a case of bad parenting you should have stood firm with Baby Jesus and destroyed mankind. And Baby Jesus I guess it's safe to say Father knows best he could foresee all of this mess. Your gesture was kind and true yet not one of us is worthy of you.

   Holy Wars what an oxymoron. Christianity has become a circus within itself! We walk in death's shadow yet call it life. We don't realize we are already dead or as we would understand it as good as dead. We celebrate life and mourn death how backward is that? Mankind's religious orders have mangled and tangled  "I AM'S words to suit their movements and now every order is in question.

     I must say I've even developed a different understanding of those who commit suicide. It's a weird way out. Anyways it appears that technology is advancing and humans are regressing especially the negro race. There was a time when we snarled at being recognized as black. We went from segregation to desegregation and now of our own doing back to segregation go figure.  Examples: Bet, Ebony, Essence, Black Google, etc., using it as a facade. Our forefathers fought for equality, not separability. Our world leaders are showing their true color green! Light-green, forest-green, emerald-green.

     As the human race, we have become selfish, greedy, no respect for life or no respect for one another. Also, God has been removed from just about everywhere schools, courtrooms, money (and rightly so) he's been pushed so far from the picture that he hardly exists except in controversy and turmoil. So on that note, I think that Father God is pretty tired of us and Baby Jesus. Two-thousand yrs is a long time to let one prove himself ?.  "And that's just my 2 cents."


  

My Life My Journey

My Life My JourneyMy Life My Journey

 My Path

November 7, 2015, at 12:55am I'll be officially turning down the page of 6 decades. Life's been fair. I've weathered many storms and learned many life lessons. Today I began thinking about what can I share with the world and more importantly something tangible that I can leave my two beautiful granddaughters. Three words came to mind ( My Life Story ). My life thus far has been more than interesting and very colorful at times. A written Legacy it is!

Today we'll travel back into my past where my life began. I'm a proud New York City girl. New York City is made up of five boroughs: Manhattan, The Bronx, Brooklyn, Queens, and Staten Island.

Born 1955 one of a pair at The Famous and Infamous Harlem Hospital Lenox Avenue & 135th Street. World-famous (Harlem) home of the historical Harlem Ballroom, Apollo Theater, One Hundred & Twenty-Fifth Street, Schomburg Center, The County Cullen Branch Library, Silvia's and so much more.

Eighteen months later on to what we refer to as (the boogie down) the Bronx. Bronx NY. Home of historical Fort Apache, Savoy Manor, George Washington Bridge, City Island, Bronx Zoo,  and Yankee Stadium. I lived at 798 East 165th street between Union and Forrest avenues. I attended elementary school P.S. 23 just across the street. That area home to Legendary Ms. Diana Ross & Patti LaBelle. On to 868 East 163rd street
between Westchester and Prospect avenues, area of good renown Johnson's Barbecue. 

May 1960 Staten Island NY home of The Famous Staten Island Ferry and the Infamous Willowbrook State School for the mentally and physically challenged, where my eldest brother was housed mandated by state laws until 1962. We would visit every weekend. Senator Robert Kennedy toured the school in 1965 and reported that individuals were overcrowded and living in filth. After a series of undercover investigations, the school was dismantled. Rightly so!

November 1963 to Queens NY home of The Great- Count Basie, Cab Calloway, Louis Armstrong, Iconic L.L. Cool.  Historical Audubon Ballroom, The Village Gate equivalent to Manhattan's Blue Note. Also the Queensboro Bridge (better known as the 59th street bridge). Home of the 1964 Worlds' Fair, Shea Stadium- which is now City field NY Mets.

February 2009 Brooklyn NY the home of two extraordinary men in my life.  My first love and Fiance-now deceased. Also presently the Love Of My Life and soulmate.

February 2012 relocated to my family origins North Carolina State, home of my paternal and maternal ancestors and home to me three years. Rich in history. How cool is that?

August 2015- Present Atlanta GA my new found place, home!? Well not just yet.

I also pride myself as an eastern sea border. I have visited extensively and am familiar with every state except for two along the east cost.

Thank you for traveling with me today. I will be sharing a few in depth personal excerpts from my legacy too. You won't want to miss!



 

" Repeat After Me "

Repeat after me! Skuzzball

Lee Louis Daniels is a skuzzball. It always baffles me how our folks can owe out money and suddenly get amnesia. Just tweeted the other day about how Berry Gordy Jr did The Funk Brothers. It is my conclusion that GREED doesn't have a conscience! However I'd like to remind all you greedy people of your A B C's: A) You don't bite the hand that feeds you. B) Karma's a bitch. C) Don't burn your bridges, you never know when you may have to cross them again !!  Suffice it to say I do not support skuzzballs. Therefore I will not be watching season two of Empire real talk. I think Tyler Perry is a much better writer anyways.
Dash is a cool cat, if it was me I'd slander your name and rightly so. You would also have to pay me interest on that dude. Pay The Man !!
And know that you just lost one (supporter) !
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